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Have you ever wanted to die?
So bad
That you stood in the bathroom
A knife or a razor blade in hand
Maybe a boodle of pills
And a glass of water
And you stared at the mirror
Just wishing you'd die
But then you started to think
About your mom and your dad
Your sisters and brothers
Your nephews and nieces
All of your friends
And you put down the knife or the razor blade
You put away the pills
And you walked away
Acting like nothing ever happened
But the thoughts of your family and friends
Never stay for long
Day's week's maybe months later
Your back to thinking about suicide and death
i wrought this win i was in a dark place and im sure alot of people can relate to this
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:iconcaramelandartemis:
CaramelandArtemis Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2018  Student General Artist
Hmmm yes B O O D L E
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:iconlord-gorz:
Lord-Gorz Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2018
I am thinking of this right now. My family is the only thing that keeps me from doing it.
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:iconkuolemaantuomittu:
Kuolemaantuomittu Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2018  Hobbyist
Awesome words ♥ My thoughts exactly, except I don't have any friends that keeps me going :'D
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:iconrjbg:
RJBG Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2018
Great work!
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:iconthicccdoggo:
ThicccDoggo Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
My dad is the reason why I tried hanging myself with a clothes hanger ;-;
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:iconhirobart:
HirobArt Featured By Owner May 10, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
I thought I was the only one that thinks so
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:iconnunyabeezknees:
Nunyabeezknees Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2018
I didn't put it down, but here I am...
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:iconamelimi:
Amelimi Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2018
*you’re
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:iconfoxoul:
Foxoul Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2018  Student General Artist
MymomisthereasonIwantotdie but this is very good
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:iconcolourval:
Colourval Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
^ more spread out with my family though
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Autopilot633 Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Have been ever since i was 5 and may as well have broken the record on suicide attempts and I still do to this day.
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9Alexia6 Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2018   General Artist
Same
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:iconnightmarelilly:
nightmarelilly Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2018  Student Writer
I don't get it, why do I have suicidal thoughts when nothing is going wrong? When I don't have depression? When I don't have anxiety? I can't kill myself though. It's a coward's way out of life, I still have to complete everything I hope for. I have to strive and make my mark. But it fails, everytime. I suppose it's my perfectionism. It's not about everything around me, it's about me. I'm not good enough, I'm not smart enough, I'm not beautiful enough, I'm overweight. I'm too altruistic. I'm too sad. I'm too cocky. I always bring too many problems. I seem to find every flaw in my life and just exaggerate it, sometimes I can't even control it.

And yeah, I know I'm edgy as fuck.
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:icondarlingfoxes:
darlingfoxes Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2018
every single day
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No-Stop Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
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:iconlilbrowgirl:
lilbrowgirl Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2017
Beautifully worded.
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:iconaskshadowriolu:
AskShadowRiolu Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2017  Professional Interface Designer
Yes. I can relate.
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rufflesfirefly Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I can relate but i dont care about my mom dad nor brother. Just my sister. I care about my friends. My friends are my family so i cant leave them. I consider suicide many times but never had the courage to do so.
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CreepyPastaFangirl06 Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
What if your family treats you wrong and you don't have any friends or any of that stuff what stops you then? What if there's no purpose for you anymore and you're just a clump of flesh in the vast expanse of space and time and nobody cares about you? These are my questions. They are serious questions. I just want it all to end...
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EvilCharcoal Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i don't have any friends or family anymore. I'm already dead to them all. i can't fell any love from them and nothing is coming from living with my family no more.
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JellicleKit1 Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
yes.
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XxSkittlePonyxX Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yes all the damn time
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:iconblacksheep0:
Blacksheep0 Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Sounds like desctrition of my past few days
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:iconlovli323:
Lovli323 Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2017  Student General Artist
All the time...
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:iconezioilmentore:
EzioIlMentore Featured By Owner May 29, 2017
JUST FUCKING DO IT
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:iconladylunoma:
LadyLunoma Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Get a life you fucking troll.
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:iconezioilmentore:
EzioIlMentore Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2018
( ಠ ͜ʖ ಠ)̿̿ ̿̿ ̿̿ ̿'̿'\̵͇̿̿\

This should be a better signature for you.
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:iconladylunoma:
LadyLunoma Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
And you should get a life, fucking low-life troll. :/
Also, that's funny you say that to someone with depression. XD
I have a low enough self esteem, I don't feel what your petty comment is trying to make me feel. 
Maybe you should get off your computer and live your worthless life instead of trolling. There's better things out there, kid. 
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:iconnightmarelilly:
nightmarelilly Featured By Owner Jan 18, 2018  Student Writer
Not the best advice.
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:iconshining-char:
shining-char Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
....dude...
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:iconfandomotp:
FandomOTP Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
um actually yes
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:iconrelic302:
Relic302 Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
Yes.
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:icondemonicsableye:
DemonicSableye Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
My pill boodle is empty :(
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:iconfriikz0:
friikz0 Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
lmao
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:iconlunchymunchies:
lunchymunchies Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2017
Why do you feel this way? If you have friends and family you care about?
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Daracias Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Depression, anxiety, or literally any major mental illness. It fucks up a person, makes them think 'wrong' and freaky shit.
Just a few months ago I was pretty happy, I was 'okay' and the things I thought weren't... 'messed up'.
Now ? I have nearly 70 cuts on my thigh, everyday I've wished to die, I just wish the rope was around my neck and my family could read the suicide note I left. I am currently talking with my school psychologist so I could recover from my depression (and maybe anxiety).
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:iconlunchymunchies:
lunchymunchies Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2017
But what's causing the depression?
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:icondaracias:
Daracias Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Most common cause is trauma. Being bullied, abused ect.. but not alwaus it's something physichal.
My depression was (most likely) caused by breakup with my first serious girlfriend in January, and a family accident month later.
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:iconlunchymunchies:
lunchymunchies Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2017
Oh, I'm so sorry. I hope things get better; you can always talk to me.
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No-Stop Featured By Owner Edited Dec 31, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
I have Social anxiety disorder and depression. I ended up in the hospital because i tried to kill myself. I had taken a bunch of random pills. That kind of shit permanantly fucks you up. 
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13rainbowsplash Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2017  Student Traditional Artist
yes.
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:iconnora598:
Nora598 Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2017
It would be the best if there's a ''suicide button''

All u need to do is to click it and wo hoo ur dead.

I'm lazy lol
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:icondaracias:
Daracias Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
*omg yes*
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DigitalPaintingWolf Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I had never gotten that close to were I had a razor in hand but I have had thoughts like that in the past. Then I just think about how my friends and family would be affected. And I don't think about it anymore.
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S1l3ntGr3y Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Been there, almost done that. It`s quiet now. But for how long? I don`t know if those can be one of my last words. Kinda scary now, but when I want to do this, there`s nothing. No thinking, no fear, no nothing.
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KirbyGamer12 Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2017  Student Traditional Artist
Painful.
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TheLoneRouge Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder type two, attempted suicide once last year. Meds are no longer working, or atleast it feels like they're not working... Feel tired of battling with Bipolar Disorder, and I'm becoming suicidal again...
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IlyenaHind2000 Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2017
I'm suicidal, but people only see me as "doing it for attention" and so they dont care how i feel, when no i really aren't seeking attention at all. i dont know why you guys think i am
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