The Invitation

        Dear all my Holy Sisters who give yourself to service God, 
If you happen to find this letter. I hope you find yourself a quiet and dark room. Bring yourself a candle to help illuminate the darkness. 
Because i about to tell you the deepest and darkest journey to find Our Savior. 
   
My story begin in early 17th century. I write this letter in my time running away from the Turks, Ottoman Empire.

        I was 20 years old nun who devote our life with other sisters in a small village of Austria. When Turks invade Europe, they decide to invade Austria. I, as a nun, who devote my life and passion of Christ for the first time experience the cruelty of Janissary in wars. The first time i know that love and passion cant solve everything.
         
        They burn the village where i live, i brutally kill men who protect their wife and children. They shackles women and children to a slave labor. I run with sister Joanna and Katrina. Other sisters try to talk with the Janissary. We persuade them to run with us, but they say "We should stand to our faith sister.". Thus they stay behind.

        We peek from the woods as they defile them, take their sacred virginity and force them to become slave pleasure. They kill our sister who refuse to give in, such cruelty ! 

        We run away to search for help. Katrina run to north, i run west, Joanna run south. Some merchant tell Joanna about a city that no Turks dare to enter. While we search help in other cities, a letter from Joanna came. "Sister Sophia. The rumor is true, the city is a sanctuary. No Turks dare to enter the city and survive the next morning. You should meet me here, with sister Katrina. God has answer our prayers and show us salvation." The letter come with a map.

        I arrive at dusk at the castle. It was dark and unsettling about the castle. Sister Joanna greet me on the castle yard. The Countess of the castle is a young lady. Her name is Anastasia, accompanied by her right-hand man. They welcome me with open arm. They take use on a walk around the castle ground. What interesting is the ornament of the female bodies that decorate the castle seems like made by real female flesh. I pretty sure i hear a human breathing when i walk next to them. I dont think sister Joanna realize this. 

        By the night fall, we pray at the chapel, hoping that every action can be forgiven and found way their way to salvation, we also pray for our fallen sisters at the hand of invaders. May God accept their souls in heaven. 

        When i finished praying. I realize sister Joanna is missing. I found her in the hallway. She seems like talking to a statue and touching its genital before rushing out, as if she know someone watching her. 

        I curiously approach and touch the statue that sister Joanna touch, and to my surprise its warm. Warm enough like my own flesh with gushing blood through its veins. I lift its skirt and exposed its genital. I know its deeply wrong, but in my heart i'm so curious. I hope God forgive for i about to give into temptation. So i touch its genital. 

        To my surprise, it is wet. Wet as a young virgin who never realize touching herself could be this wet. Wet like a nun who never desire to explore her sexuality. Wet, like me. 

        The more i touch it, the more my finger soaked in its lovely fluids. I push my finger a little deeper, and i can her someone moaning.

        I stop. I afraid that someone caught me doing illicit activity. I look around but no one there. No one, the hallway is empty. I turn around and look back at the beautiful statues. I tempted to touch it again. 

        I touch it, this time the statues next to the one before. I touch its thigh and its already shaking. I rubs its thigh stump and the statue cant stop shaking. I touch its genital and its also start to get wet like the other statue. At first i hear a faint moan in the air. But after touching it harder i realize the voice coming from the statue in front of me. In my heart i ask myself "What are you ?"     

        "Sister Sophia!" Someone touch my shoulder from behind. I almost got heart attack from that. I turn back awkwardly. He is the Countess right-hand man. "I'm sorry Sir ... " "Gerson," He reply. "Why you are wandering around in the night Sister? " I was about to find an excuse and ask him about the statues. "Come now Sister, its not wise to wandering around the castle in midnight." And so that night my curiosity about this castle began to sprung. 

        I wake up the morning the day was cloudy, almost like no sunlight able to shine upon the land and the land this castle rule, i spend my day pray so that sister Katrina may found a safe path to travel to this castle. The night sky is clear, i able to see the moon, full moon shine upon me, bathe with its blessing. I feel like take a bath on the lake.

        So i take out my robe and get naked, not a string to my body, but that is fine, the lake is near the castle and the town is in the other side of the castle, so i hope no peasant or merchant will caught a nun take a night bath in the lake.

        But i could be more wrong, i almost get caught. There are more than five carriage travel on the side road of the lake. Inside there are young maidens, probably in their eighteen traveling to the castle. I hide myself until the carriage reach the castle, where Gerson lead the maidens inside. In their way back one of the carriage driver pull over by the lake, i trying to hide myself behind the tall cattail. But the driver still found me when we exchange look. "Goodnight Sister, Sister Sophia i presume ? I had a letter to deliver for you. Sorry, i was not try to peep you, but the gentleman said i might found you here. I gonna leave the letter here. Have a good night Sister." and then the driver leave. 

        I finished my bath and open the letter. Inside i found father Joseph handwriting ! I cant believe my own eyes, i found it to be difficult to understand but really father Joseph said about salvation and a God of the quiet place and he ask me to meet me by the lake in the evening. I saw a month ago Father Joseph get murdered in front of my eyes. Did he mean, he really found salvation ? I thought God has forsaken us ? I thought that God left us butchered by the Turks like animal. Did he talking about another God ? No ! This must be Devil's doing ! He know i would stray from God's path if He remind me of what happen on my past, on Father Joseph. 

        My mind was puzzling me, question and question keep popping on my head. It only when i enter the castle the question on my mind get disturbed by a lot of voices. I keep hearing moaning, a lot of woman moaning one after another, its like dozens or hundred of them. It so faint but because of the numbers there no mistake the are a lot of woman moaning at the same time. I tried to find the source, but the harder i trying to find, the harder i found them. Until i stop at the hallway and i feel like all those moaning sounds seems like coming from all around me. From all those statues or mannequin that decorate the hallway, but that cannot be it ? Right ? Their soft flesh that seems like a living human must be making my fantasy spinning. I know all those voices and moaning must be just inside my head.  

        I trying to sleep that night, but a nightmare has haunt me that night. I see myself following the guests that i saw enter the castle that night. I followed them on top of castle yard where the moon is bathe upon the castle. On the top i saw 10 mechanism being prepared, for each guest that strip and kneel before it. The guards lock their hands on their back and place their head on the mechanism. The ladies are waiting, nervously as a man with black robe, say a prayer for them. Then he bless them, and the guards cut the rope. Something hard, something heavy fall from on top the mechanism, and 10 things rolls. They meet at center, circling the feet of that priest on black robe. Then the man on the black robe turn around to me. It was Father Joseph. He take my hand, told me not to afraid, as i walk to the last mechanism, saved for mine. Father Joseph disrobe my cloth and my veil "Fear not sister. For you are beautiful sheep about to be sacrificed before Her." I nods as Father Joseph bound my wrist. I kneel before the mechanism, as it my way for my salvation. Father Joseph lock my head in place with a heavy piece of wood and iron lock from both side. As i wait, the knell start to toll, i get anxious, my heart beating so fast and my chest felt heavy, and i woke up.

        That morning i saw sister Joanna quickly rush out from the chapel. But when i get down from my bed, she already gone. On the evening i caught her again, trying to enter the chapel as i finish my praying. She looks like in a hurry, i stop her and ask "Hey sister Joanna, i never saw you sleep in your bed ? Where are have you been all the night ?" "I sleep in much better place sister. I sleep with God every night." She speak. "You mean inside the chapel?" I ask her again. "Not inside the chapel, but you will find out soon enough, and you will love to rest in peace in there. By the way sister, you not forget you evening promise are you? Someone has waited for you by the lake." How did she? I remember the letter Father Joseph wrote to me. "How did you .... know ?" as I gonna ask her, sister Joanna already vanish. 

        I walk by the lake, i never intended to go there but somehow my heart draw me to walk around, admiring its beauty. And by the willow tree i saw someone in a black clothing. That cant be ? I run faster approaching him, and he turn to me. "Oh my God ! Father Joseph !" I jump to him, he embrace me and hug me tight. I need to brush it off, but i really miss the man that i love. While my flesh deny, my heart ached so bad to not let him go. It still awkward when i let him go. I had so many question inside my head, but the moment i saw his face, all those question doesnt seem to matters anymore. "Please have a bath with me Sister" He spoke in soft tone, instruct me to join him to take a bath in the lake. He quickly strip his clothes in front of me, first his skin then his manhood, i saw it all. He is so patient, he waited for me undo my dress, my veil, and all my Christianity that attached to my body until i there are nothing except my white skin over me. I cover myself from the shame, but he offer his hand to me and he guide me slowly as i walk with him to the water where i feel save between the reeds that cover my purity.

        "At first i thought i was alone Sister," He started to talk. "There is no God, no Angels or any sign from HIM. That prevent the Turks from slaughtering the villager, i run away, trying to save a girl. But the Turks caught us, and they murder that innocent girl in front of my eyes, before i felt their cold steel slice my chest." It was awful, Father Joseph story is truly awful, but what i truly hate is myself. I regret to run away, not try to save him. I hug him from behind, as my skin touch his back my hand can feel his wound, his woe, the scar so big that split his chest in two. I can feel it with my palm "Im sorry Father," I cried. "I'm sorry that i run and left you behind. You must be hate me so much right now." He turn and look at me in the eyes "Dont cry Sister. Its true that God has abandon us. But there is another God. Another God that full of love for her subjects. She demand nothing except for your body and soul in exchange for her salvation." He wipe the tears from my cheeks "There is ?" "Yes, Sister. I met her Angel being sent to save me from dying. She is so beautiful, Her wings is dark like a midnight raven, she wear a luscious attire, had shackle on her wrists, and blindfold to make her only see what her GOD wanted her to see. She lick my wound with her long tongue and i healed at once. She offered me eternity on her Master Palace only if i brought the love of my life with me. And it brought you to me Sister." He brush my brown hair and take a long deep look into my eyes. "Will you Sister ? Will you help me reach eternity in God place ? Our New Master Palace ?" Can it be ? Father Joseph has the same feeling like i have for him for years. "Please my love ..." He begs. "Y-Yes, of course Father. I will always followed you and never left your side again. I have always love you Father." He kissed me and embrace me tightly in his arms. My bosom kiss his chest, as well as his manhood rubs around my crotch. No one ever know how i longed to be one with Father Joseph. 

        After our bath Father Joseph carry me to his destination. He is still naked, so does I. It's like Adam carry his wife to his bed. Oh no, my imagination get the best of me. 

        We arrived at the chapel, "How is Sister Joanna sees us Father ?" He smile to me "She will see us for sure Sister." He put me down on the Altar and then lock the chapel's door.
        
        Father Joseph pin me down on the altar as he kiss my neck wanting me, lusting over me. "Wait Father, He watching over us." I said "Then i think you better say your prayer Sister."

        "Forgive me Father for i have sinned. I dont know how long it's been since my last confession, because i want to commit this sin so bad."

        Father Joseph reply "Bless Us O Lord and this thy gifts which we are about to receive from thy bounty through our Lord." "Amen." I close the prayer, and i hug Father Joseph as then he claim my virginity. 

        I moaned as Father Joseph pound me gentle with his manhood on the Altar of our God. Which we used to worship him, through our body and soul. And my virgin blood that bleed out on his Altar. As I break my engagement with Him, while his son bare witness of our sin from the cross above our head. Only Father Joseph may have my body and soul, not Him or His Son. 

        I moaned louder as the pain turn to pleasure, i want everyone to know i no longer belong to Him. I no longer His woman. I want the whole world to know, i want Sister Joanna to know. "Do you want to take me as your wife Father ?" I ask Father Joseph in the heat of our make love. As Father Joseph reply with seeding my womb with his love. Without a need to say anything else to me, He has mark me as his everlasting wife which then we kissed and spent our night together, making love on the Altar.

        "Come Sister. We must hurry." Father Joseph suddenly hurried me to follow him. "Come with me my love. The door to salvation is almost at hand." "To where Father ?" Father Joseph unlock the back door of the chapel which i never been able to open. As we take the stairs down to the cellar i feel like we are heading toward a darkness that will swallow us both. "It's getting darker Father. I'm so afraid. Even the torch cannot handle its darkness. Should we go back ?" But then he assure me it just the eclipse who shade the moon from its light. That everything would be fine "You trust me dont you, my love ?" 

        We arrived at the cellar, no torch had been lit there. The cellar is so dark, so cold and moldy. But somehow i feel there is someone else beside me and Father Joseph in the room with us. "Who is there ?" I ask. "Well, Isn't that Sister Sophia ? Welcome to my resting place Sister Sophia." "Sister Joanna is that you?" "Yes Sister. This is where i rest, and soon you will rest here too." I walk around on the darkness, my eyes try to adjust to the pitch-black darkness, until i found Sister Joanna head standing on the wall. 

        I approached her "Why here Sister ? This place is so damp, and cold, and moldy, and .... DARK !" "No Sister, This place is perfect. Its warm, its dark, and its far away from the light. You will grow to love to rest here. Just like i do." Im not sure i follow what Sister Joanna saying. 

        Suddenly someone pats my shoulder from behind, "It's time Sister." "Oh Father, dont leave me again Father, not in the Darkness." I snuggle his body. The night is so cold and we both naked, I need his warmth. I need his warm liquid up to my belly. I need to be one again with him, as i rubs my bosom against his warm chest. "Our love making could wait my wife. Now its time presented you to our Master, our Mistress, our new GOD. "Okay Father." I followed Father Joseph deeper into the darkness.

        He stop at one point and told me to surrender. I always ready to surrender everything to him. He chained my wrists on my back and whisper to my ear "Kneel  Sophia, dont be afraid for anything what will happen next. Trust me, and i will guide you to be my everlasting wife." His voice send shivers on my spine, i know i afraid of darkness and because i can not see anything. But i believe in him, so i kneel as he placed my head on some wood pillory. He brush my hair aside before locking my head with a heavy piece of wood on top of me. I felt a space between my neck like the dream i had, like some mechanism my mother told me not to watch as i was a kid. 

        I heard the knell toll. I think i been here before, but not here, up somewhere. As the knell toll, slowly a big door open in front of us. A woman walk from that door. A Goddess. She walk from that door. She is so big, so feminine, so beautiful. Her horns like a crown on her head, her skin is so red like blood, she walk toward me like a lady, with a man part between her crotch. 

        Suddenly i can no longer hear the knell, as i feel a heavy burden upon my neck, and i roll toward my Goddess. She saw me and pick me up from the floor. She is smiling, she so happy to meet me.

        She turn me around and hand me over to my husband. Where i saw a headless body, fall on the floor, twitchy and jumpy with blood gushed from her throat. I saw Sister Joanna head, mounted on the wall, not commenting anything about the horror. And i blink to Father Joseph, as he lower me down to his manhood that i gladly accept and pleasure it with my mouth. His penis is filling my throat .... But, I cant feel my throat anymore. Unnggghh !!! I cannot think, and my head  so dizzy. I getting sleepy while pleasing his cock. I decided to pray to God before i fall asleep

        "Come and embrace me Lord. Hold me secure. Hold me strong. Hold me forever. In your everlasting arms"  

        "AMEN" She whispered on my ears. And the light is snuffed out from my eyes.

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