It was the spot. Barbara had spent a good deal of time, as she was growing up, on this very dune. She had gotten into the habit of coming here because of her dad. The reason he liked it was because of it’s unique geographical benefit in comparison with the rest of the beach. The north shore was called that name for a reason. The horizon you saw out at sea was mostly due north. That meant no real sunrises or sunsets. This spot was sitting on a little point that allowed you to face east and west. It only took a short little walk to get to either. Right now, since the sun was coming up, Barbara was facing east.
She did not spend a lot of time watching the sun come up over the surf and sand. Instead, she just kept looking at the empty patch of ground right next to her. He wasn’t there. He would never, ever, sit there again. Barbara had come to except that years ago or, at least, she thought she had.
Her father’s words kept echoing through her mind as they often did. Barbara remembered that day at Riggins when they all left for the war. Sometimes it felt like yesterday and, at others, it did not even feel real. Any way it went, what it always had felt like was crystal clear. Her father had formally turned the station over to her at a ceremony right in front of the main building. He had really turned it over to her when he got ready to board that shuttle. After he hugged Barbara, and then shouldered his bag, he then looked her in the eye and told her, “never let ‘em see you cry baby. Never.” Those were the last words he ever spoke to her.
She took a deep breath and held it. Then Barbara closed her eyes. She squinted so hard it almost hurt. She made a wish. Then when she opened them again she shrieked when someone really was sitting there! Barbara broke down into short pants and then she felt like slugging him, “would you please not do that!”
Begrudgingly, Barbara took the mug and then went back to watching the sunrise. Jake just followed along with that course of action. He did not say a word. He watched while Barbara sipped at her coffee. Then, after some time, she finally said, “I guess I never did say thank you.”
In a very proper manner, Barbara told him, “let’s hope there’s not going to be another one, Mister Barton.”
“Well you know what,” he stressed the name, “Barbara. How about let’s just do the whole thanking you thing by, say, you just call me Jake, and then I call it even.”
Jake only snickered to her laughter when he pointed out, “oh really? Well it may have slipped your memory but, you did call me Jake, once.”
“Yeah, well, I do,” he replied. “It’s right before the, uh,” Jake made a swinging motion with his arm and stumbled around with his words as he did.
“Fortunately,” Jake told her, “you missed that particular point but, yeah, I guess, that’s in the past now. We can move on.”
He just easily shrugged, “do what exactly?”
Barbara spelled it out, “considering everything that’s happened, everything that is happening, you just go right on like the only thing you have to worry about is figuring out which way to run in the morning.”
“Well,” Barbara told him, “I hate to break the news to you Barton, but, it isn’t that simple. Nothing is ever that simple here.”
This time was no exception, “I hate to break the news to you Barbara but, I’ve been on more than my fair share of planets, and everybody always says that on every last one of them. Oh, and by the way, that also includes Earth.”
They sat in silence for a little while longer. Then Jake broke it with pointing to her belly, “you know I hate to admit when Kent is right but, you really should get that looked at.”
“What about the rest of you,” Jake replied.
“That’s not what I’m talking about,” Jake told her resolutely.
Jake looked at this woman in a befuddled way when he asked her, “is that what you think happened last night?”
“Barbara,” Jake said with an uncommon seriousness, “Shannon wasn’t the target here. Whatever the kid knows, that made her of such interest to them, it’s got to be worthless at this point. Last night only proved that theory.”
“No,” Jake told her. “in you case you didn’t notice, they tried to draw me and Norm in too.”
Jake did not take it that way. He was thinking too professionally to do that right now, “sure they didn’t know who was going to show up looking for you but, they didn’t care. Barbara, it wasn’t JUST Shannon they were after. They were trying to take US out. That means all of us. They want the Rangers gone. What? You think they sent those guys right into the heart of our operations just to kill one fourteen year old girl? Barbara, they were there to kill anybody they found. If that damn ship hadn’t caught fire, we could have had a blood bath last night.”
Jake had to ask, “that’s why what?”
“Um,” Jake remained very serious, “no.”
“I’m not worried about me,” Jake said with a certain tone of hostility. He kept it as he continued, “I’m sure I can run this place just fine. They didn’t send me out here because I’m a lame ass.”
“You,” he replied bluntly. Then he pointed at her, “and that little girl of yours and, well, everybody here for that matter. Not only do those kids need you Barbara, you need them too.” Jake added as an after thought, “and right now more than ever.”
Jake spit it out, “you sure this is about Shannon?”
“I never said that wasn’t the case Barbara,” Jake told her remaining calm. Then he told her, “the problem here is that you’re too big of a bitch to admit that you’re human. Last night you needed help and now, for some reason, you’re taking that out on everybody else. Why don’t you just admit you were scared. Why don’t you just admit you’re still scared.”
As the tears rolled down her cheek, Barbara’s jaw still remained tight and her face red with anger. She locked eyes with Jake and then, suddenly, they both broke out in laughter. Barbara was even still crying as she did. As she pushed the tears back she told them, “Barton, I don’t think anybody since my father has… well, has seen me like I was last night.”
Barbara laughed but her tone was serious when she replied, “you want to know the truth? I hate your guts for it, to be honest.”
“OH,” Barbara sounded unconvinced, “and I suppose Mister Special Forces has a plan.”
“Oh, ok,” she was still unconvinced, “and that would be?”